sometimes my world gets just a little too small for comfort.
\ni tried to find him once before, to no avail. i considered it a sign. there was a reason i couldn’t find him when i wanted. the universe meant me to leave that door closed.
\nnow it’s opened a titch and the past is leaking through.
\nit’s a test. someone, somewhere, wants to see just how good my resolve is. how much i’m willing to withstand my fearsome curiosity to remain true to my promise to myself to leave the past in<\/i> the past. to not dwell on what was. to let go of the hurt, the self-recriminations, the anger, the still lingering wondering what might have been.
\nsome doors need to stay locked. some should even be bricked up and hermetically sealed. yet, sometimes, you need to peek in just to ensure you made the right choice. i did that just recently and i’m very glad of it. but this one… too many daemons behind it. too much of everything. the memories are enough.
\nit needs to be enough that i now know where he is, that he’s alive and seemingly well. honestly, it’s more than i had hoped for.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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