sometimes when i’m lying in bed at night and the neighbour’s porch light is bleeding through my blinds, i stare at the smoke detector on my ceiling. in the gloom and hypothalmic haze, the pattern on its casing takes on a kokopelli shape and often worries me into restless dreams.
\nthen there are the waking moments; the brief periods of consciousness amidst the rem cycles and muddled perceptions. when i refuse to believe i’m not flying or falling; when my eyes won’t stay closed against the reality pummeling itself into my brain. i’m grateful they don’t last long.
\nthe daydreams are the most disturbing. they’re the most tangible because imagination takes over and carries me away, without a care for where i want to journey. the encounters are so vivid i can almost convince myself the situations were authentic. most often it would be preferable if they did occur; i’m much more bold inside my brain.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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