{"id":1915,"date":"2004-05-20T08:19:23","date_gmt":"2004-05-20T08:19:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog2\/?p=1915"},"modified":"2004-05-20T08:19:23","modified_gmt":"2004-05-20T08:19:23","slug":"feeling_better","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/feeling_better\/","title":{"rendered":"feeling better"},"content":{"rendered":"
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maybe i’m an emotional bulemic. once i purge it all, i always seem to feel much better. i’m so thankful for all your kind responses and support. it truly is an amazing thing to have virtual strangers reaching out to you.
\ni realize that what you know of me is dictated by what i choose to put on this page and when. you couldn’t have known that shortly after getting out all those negative feelings, i felt so much lighter and less put upon. part of me wants to now reassure you that i’m not on the verge of suicide or in need of medical treatment. i don’t walk around all day with a cloud of misery hovering over me. i’m human. i have negative thoughts. sometimes, you just have to vent. you have to express the darkness inside before it consumes you. how very dire i make it sound, but it’s the truth.<\/p>\n

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i know, very well, that there are great feelings, too. feelings which don’t suck at all. in the interest of balance…
\ni feel infinitely lucky to have such an amazing group of friends who love me despite my moods and sometimes off-putting quirks. i feel invigorated when i have an interesting and open-minded conversation about potentially controversial topics. i feel proud of finally taking steps to improve my health by learning to eat in a way that is helping my body find a healthy weight. i feel strong when i push myself just that little bit further when i work out. i feel creative when i look through the collection of photographs i’ve taken and think of the photographs i have yet to take. i feel giddy when i discover something new that delights me. i feel sensual when a boy wants to get into my pants. i feel loved when i think of my family. i feel driven and determined when faced with a new challenge. i feel competent and confident with regards to my work. i feel overwhelming curiousity when i’m obsessed with learning something new.<\/p>\n

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maybe i’m an emotional bulemic. once i purge it all, i always seem to feel much better. i’m so thankful for all your kind responses and support. it truly is an amazing thing to have virtual strangers reaching out to you. i realize that what you know of me is dictated by what i choose …<\/span> Read More →<\/span><\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1915","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-photos"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1915","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1915"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1915\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1915"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1915"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1915"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}