{"id":2272,"date":"2005-08-14T22:43:07","date_gmt":"2005-08-14T22:43:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog2\/?p=2272"},"modified":"2005-08-14T22:43:07","modified_gmt":"2005-08-14T22:43:07","slug":"and_after_the_s","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/and_after_the_s\/","title":{"rendered":"and after the shock wore off&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p align=\"center\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"\/images\/digicam\/0493-hello_molson.jpg\" class=\"photo\" alt=\"0493-hello_molson.jpg\" title=\"molson would like to say hello to you.\" \/><\/p>\n<p>tomorrow starts my two weeks of hell at work.  monday &#038; tuesday will be Train Byron Days.  from wednesday on, i get to be sean while i keep babysitting byron while he tries to figure out how to do my job.  so, i&#8217;m writing this on sunday night.  at eleven p.m.  when i should really be sleeping considering i didn&#8217;t get to bed until two-thirty this morning and it took most of the day to rid me of my hangover.  there will be crashing very early this week.  trust me on this one.<br \/>\nsaturday was a great, fun day. even going into work for a couple of hours was good.  then <a href=\"http:\/\/colene.blogspot.com\">colene<\/a> showed up and we took off for a night of fun, food and cougars.  we had some yummy sushi on denman street, then we laughed until it hurt at theatresports&#8217; &#8220;<a href=\"http:\/\/www.vtsl.com\/mainstage\/shows\/the_imprentice.php\">the imprentice<\/a>&#8221; and then we ended up at a total cougar bar back on the north shore.  i fell in lust with a hipster guy at the bar while colene couldn&#8217;t get over the crazy oldpeople demographic patronizing the place.  yay for having colene to girltalk with all night (and drive me home after getting drunk at the pub).<br \/>\ntoday, i nursed my hangover and then went out to celebrate a 95th birthday party.  hazel is a great lady and i&#8217;m thankful that, through meghan, i&#8217;ve gotten to know her. it was also great to see dean for the first time in six months, not to mention getting to spend time with m&#038;m and their cats.  i do love their cats.  there are some photos <a href=\"http:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/hessiebell\/sets\/756281\/\">here<\/a>, if you&#8217;re interested.<br \/>\nso, in the aftermath of my friday night date, writing the entry, talking it through with colene and reading everyone&#8217;s comments, i&#8217;m still not upset about the whole thing.  it was just far too surreal to even believe it actually happened.  that being said, where there is no rage, there is some serious self-confidence deflating going on with me when i stop for long enough to actually think about it.  if this guy, who really isn&#8217;t all that <i>or<\/i> a bag of chips, could basically say &#8220;i like you, but call me when you&#8217;re skinny&#8221; what is my hope of finding a guy who <em>is<\/em> all that who&#8217;ll accept me as-is?<br \/>\nyes, i know.  it&#8217;s not MY problem, it&#8217;s HIS.  i get it and i&#8217;m trying really hard to get my internal nay-sayers to realize that, but they&#8217;re tenacious little fuckers and have had free run of my head and heart for a very long time.  they know <i>all<\/i> the shortcuts and hideyholes.  i might need the orkin man to help flush them out.<br \/>\nanyway, i&#8217;d say that overall it&#8217;s been a very interesting weekend and i can guarantee you it will be an equally interesting week.  oh, by the way, expect evening posts.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>tomorrow starts my two weeks of hell at work. monday &#038; tuesday will be Train Byron Days. from wednesday on, i get to be sean while i keep babysitting byron while he tries to figure out how to do my job. so, i&#8217;m writing this on sunday night. at eleven p.m. when i should really <span class=\"ellipsis\">&hellip;<\/span> <span class=\"more-link-wrap\"><a href=\"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/and_after_the_s\/\" class=\"more-link\"><span>Read More &rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2272","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-photos"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2272","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2272"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2272\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2272"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2272"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2272"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}