i’m really fucking tired today.\u00a0 that’s what’ll happen if you don’t get to bed until after midnight and you’re awake before five the next morning, i suppose.<\/p>\n
i knew that there was a direct correlation between my mental state and the state of my home, but since embarking on this co-habitation adventure, it’s become ever more apparent to me.\u00a0 especially when situations conspire to rob me of any perceived control over them.\u00a0 as soon as i feel like i don’t have any input or way to resolve the situation… i start cleaning.<\/p>\n
that’s why i was vacuuming and doing dishes at 10:30 last night.<\/p>\n
the why isn’t important, but when i found myself all ramped-up, anxious and more than a little bit angry last night, i knew that i wasn’t going to fall back to sleep anytime soon.\u00a0 so, instead of just stewing and torturing myself, i went downstairs to reclaim my space from a weekend of kids tracking flotsam and other schmutz all over my floors.\u00a0 then the dishwasher needed emptying after i cleaned the dinner dishes.\u00a0 oh, and the dining table had to be scrubbed of the spaghetti which was strewn all over it.\u00a0 i might have thought about washing the kitchen floor, but i’m not a fucking martyr.<\/p>\n
oh, how mightily powerful one feels fueled by frustration and impotent rage.<\/p>\n
also, yay for not sharing walls.\u00a0 i’d have gotten all sorts of flack if i’d tried that level of cleaning at that time of night in my old apartment.<\/p>\n
afterwards, i rage-ate some Girl Guide cookies and binge-watched some Joel McHale Show until i couldn’t keep my eyes open any longer.\u00a0 just like i couldn’t keep my eyes open after driving to work this morning (hello five-minute nap in my car) or after lunch this afternoon (hello ten-minute nap on my desk).<\/p>\n
but, at least my floors will be clean and my kitchen counters clear when i finally get home tonight.\u00a0 i need at least one win this week, because i have a lot of trepidation about how the rest of it is going to turn out.\u00a0 with the amount of control i’m going to have at my disposal this coming week, i wouldn’t be surprised that the house will be so glitteringly clean by sunday night that you could eat off the toilets and perform surgery on the floors.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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