while driving into work this morning, i was thinking about how much i’d like to write. i really do think that i should be writing. what, i don’t know. my problem is that as soon as i decide i want to write something, i can’t think of anything interesting. i’m consumed with the dread that i’m only stealing from the genius to which i’ve been exposed by others. when i write poetry, there’s a voice in the back of my head which whispers “this isn’t yours. you stole it from that blink 182<\/I> song.”
\nalternately, when i write fiction, i have yet to get past the introduction of my characters and plot. i worry that my development will be formulaic and dull. i am hindered by my own expectations of greatness. i want to be good so badly that i’m scared to be bad even for a moment. i can’t let go of the worry that i am unoriginal. i’d rather be mute than re-write what’s already been written.
\nwhen it comes to this forum for my text, i am both grateful and intimidated by it. i love that having it encourages me to create something on a daily basis. whether it’s good or not, inspiring or not, original or not. just the fact that it is here and i know, thanks to sitemeter, that at least twenty people a day read it nudges me towards the keyboard. i’ve come to look at my life and thoughts differently because of it. i pay more attention to the passing details that colour my existance. when i get a random thought, i hang onto it for at least a heartbeat longer. “how can i write about this?” i think. i hope it’s helped me to see the mundane in a slightly more unique way and will, one day, enable me to write without fear.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
while driving into work this morning, i was thinking about how much i’d like to write. i really do think that i should be writing. what, i don’t know. my problem is that as soon as i decide i want to write something, i can’t think of anything interesting. i’m consumed with the dread that …<\/span> Read More →<\/span><\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-74","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-words"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/74","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=74"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/74\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=74"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=74"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/fubsy.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=74"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}