maybe i should have resolved to sleep better, too. so far, january has been the month of crappy sleep. i realize it’s only the fifth day of the month and it’s probably too early to condemn the entire month to this sentence, but four nights with a complete lack of proper slumber is four nights too many if you ask me. especially if you ask me. i love sleeping. sleeping is a haven, a refuge, from all the toils of reality. i love my pillows and my über-blankie. curling up with them is like being enveloped by a dear old friend/lover/protector. i feel warm and safe and content. but not lately.
lately, getting into bed has been frustrating and uncomfortable and just plain disappointing. wow, i just realized that’s not unlike sex with… but i’m digressing. i lay myself down and arrange the blanket just so and then i wait. i toss. i turn. eventually, i drift off into something that is technically sleep, but can you really call waking up every hour, excessive movement to get comfortable and vibrant dreams sleep? i think not.
sleep is supposed to be this dark, warm, soft, comforting place you slowly sink into as your mind quietly throttles down in the darkness of your room. sleep is not supposed to be exercise for either your body or your brain. sleep is not supposed to leave you pleading with the gods for the alarm to be wrong and there be two more hours until you have to get up. sleep is not supposed to leave you more tired when the sun rises in the morning than you were the night before.
maybe i just need a new bed.
I get like this occasionally. I’ve found that flipping the mattress helps considerably, and when it doesn’t, flipping ME, does. I can combat insomnia only by sleeping upside down (without changing the orientation of the blankets, et cetera).
yeah, i flipped the futon last night and it helped a little. i very nearly slept the ‘wrong’ way last night, too, but that puts my head way too close to the noisy computer. maybe i’ll shut it down and try that direction tonight.
i m likethis all the time lol
Only time im not, is when i have my bf next to me but errr.. im single now. A pink toy bunny is all i got.
Somaria