do i care?

it’s 11:48 am. i’ve just finished my lunch. it was very tasty. i’ve spent the morning pissing around with web stuff. that’s all. the pile of work i need to accomplish is getting bigger every minute. do i care? no, not really. do i care that i don’t care? a little, but not much. i’d rather be doing what i was doing or reading my new book (gilgamesh by stephan grundy) or be at a matinee…
oh, shit. that’s not very living in the moment, is it? see how easy it is to slip back into old patterns? okay, i’m going to enjoy what i’m doing at this moment.
even if it isn’t what they’re paying me for. *grin*