i was trying my hardest to make the day beyond perfect for jason’s birthday. i had it planned down to the nth degree. i wanted him to have a spectacular day. i wanted him to see how much he meant to me. i thought that if i got him the perfect presents and took him to the perfect places he’d suddenly look at me as the perfect girl.
i don’t think i’ve seen him since.
well, okay… maybe once. but, it’s been a long, time. it was a good day. i hope he remembers it fondly. i know i do.
i should be asleep right now, but i had one too many diet cokes with lemon and i really need this brain dump before i can rest. i’m finally going back to work tomorrow and i would like to get there early to assess any backlog which may have amassed during my absense. i hope it’s not too bad, i’d really hate to burn myself out trying to catch up. i know i will. that’s just how i operate. then again, if there is no backlog i will have to be upset that there wasn’t a horrible panic because i was away for seven days. they couldn’t possibly survive without me, could they?
as of seven o’clock this evening, i’m into my thirteenth smoke-free day. i had a wee puff of meghan’s cigarette yesterday at the pub, and it was horrible. i must have partially exhaled through my nose because it burned a little and when i sniffed it was all i could smell. ick. this week has been really bad for cravings, but they’re mostly situational. i think i’ve got it licked. now if i can only stop eating crap food as a placebo maybe i’ll still fit into my jeans.
i put up a personals ad tonight, along with a picture. i need to start meeting people. i’m also getting tired of people asking me why i’m single when i’m so obviously amazing they can’t imagine me being alone. we’ll see how being proactive about my love life goes. just between you and me, i’m not holding my breath. at the very least, jenabeans thinks i have kissable lips. that made my night!
by the way, i’m fully aware of the overall pathetic-ness of my content lately. i’m working on fixing that in the near future. thank you for your patience, i appreciate it.
You know what’s weird – earlier this week (my weeks now follow the store’s scheduling weeks – Monday-Sunday, in case you’re wondering just how much earlier this week could get since it’s Sunday night). Anyhow, as I was saying – earlier this week I was thinking about that day, when you cooked the steak (have your pans recovered?). I was considering bringing home Gary a really really nice cut of steak as a surprise, and meant to ask the meat dept. guy for a recommendation. Maybe I’ll save that for his b-day. And, Gary, if you’re reading this – go away! ;)
hm, good luck with that pers. ad!
That’s the first time I’ve seen a picture of you, Heather! For some reason I was imagining you a blonde. Very pretty! And good luck.
Sexy, sexy glasses.
i love you too, karl. =)
candi, i find it amusing that you thought i was blonde when i’m actually a brunette who longs to be a redhead. ;)