before i even opened my eyes yesterday morning, i knew i shouldn’t have gotten out of bed.
i was dropping things, i was late to work, i walked into a door jam, there was no coffee in the pot, my supervisor stormed into my office and started to freak out on me about tools because he just got freaked out on about tools by someone else. i can’t really blame him for how the rest of my day went, he’s a great guy, but having him burst in when nothing had gone well for me, on top of being tired from not sleeping enough and not having any coffee really fucked me up for the rest of the day.
around noon, i was hip-deep in a mood most foul, plugging away at something in order to ensure that there was nothing else anyone could freak out on me about, he came into my office and told me to go to lunch. i said no, i was in the middle of something. so, he came around my desk and unplugged my monitor then stood there saying “go for lunch. go for lunch. go for lunch.” until i picked up my bag, walked down the hall and out the door.
the morning had me so riled up i could actually feel my nerves twitching and my heart pounding. as i sat in the car trying to decide where to get lunch from (or if i should’ve just kept driving all the way home), i phoned christopher and asked if i could come over because i needed a hug. thank goodness he lives close to work. after visiting with him, getting my hugs and being completely inarticulate about the what and how of my frazzled mood, i got back to work and, although it wasn’t great, the afternoon was definitely better than the morning.
just before i left for the day, i went into my supervisor’s office and apologized for being such a cranky bitch all day. i felt bad he got the brunt of my bad day, but i ensured him it wasn’t personal and that even if the shit-fan incident hadn’t happened it still would have been a bad day for me. he understood, but i know it’s not easy to be in his position and i totally didn’t make it any easier. we’re all way too stressed in this department.
thankfully, i had vandigicam plans to look forward to last night. i swung by christopher’s house to pick him up and was happy to learn he’d invited his niece, leah, along. we stopped for some food and then met up with everyone for the walking portion of the evening. the weather was iffy and the light was dodgy, but i did manage to shoot a roll in the meikai chris gave me and half a roll in the holga, but i have no idea if anything’s going to turn out. i also got two huge and painful blisters on my foot which are making me into limpygirl today. the group thing ended with drinks and my indoctrinating leah into the sumptuous delights of crème brulee at bridges. afterwards, there was me playing taxi and subsequently falling into bed just before midnight.
can i just say how much better the second eight-hour portion of my day was than the first? it almost made going through the first part all right. no, who am i kidding? it was awful and yucky. i’m very glad that today has started much less icky and there’s a whole weekend to look forward to. yay!
*leaves a hug*