one day i’ll actually take my camera out of my bag and use it to make a photo or two. i don’t know when that day will be, but i will do it. i swear it shall happen. *sigh*
i’m still tired as fuck and i’m sick of bitching about it, but when you’re exhausted it’s really all you can think about. tonight’s my union meeting, so the best i can hope for is a quick resolution to this month’s business so i can collapse before nine. i had really good intentions about getting to bed early last night, but then i started talking to the boy. and, well, you know how that goes. it’s just a good thing he’s been leaving early to go to work or i’d never get any sleep.
i feel pretty cute today. too bad i’m wasting it on my co-workers.
why is it my car seems to run better after i’ve washed it? is this a universal phenomenon or is it peculiar to my little p.o.s. car?
i’ve been having wicked weird dreams lately. a couple nights ago, meghan left mark and was dating three different tall, blonde men i tried really hard not to like, but couldn’t help myself because they reminded me of her brother. i couldn’t help it, but i wondered if mark would consider me as his consolation prize. last night, a couple coworkers came to look at the an apartment i was thinking of moving to. it was horrible-ugly, but i kept telling them how much bigger it was than my old one. then we were out to dinner at some fancy restaurant with famous people all around and when it came time to pay the bill everything got all fubared and i was afraid we would get arrested for not having enough money to pay.
yeah, i know. i’m weird. it’s a good thing i have so many other redeeming qualities! *snarf*
ooh, another question/answer meme to get hooked on. well, since i’ve missed a few, you get more than one for my first time:
if you could have witnessed one event in history, what would you want to have seen?
the big bang.
if you could suddenly possess an extraordinary talent in one of the arts, what would you like it to be?
i wish i could write gooder.
if you were elected to be the leader of the united states tomorrow, what would be your first act?
i would immediately forbid any and all lobbying by any and all special interest groups. this would include cash donations to political campaigns. i think it’s a sick game and i’m tired of big money buying candidates and legislation.
if you could say one sentence to the current pope, what would it be?
thank you for your dedication and devotion; don’t you think it’s time to rest now?
if could could posess one supernatural ability, what would it be?
teleportation.
[what if…]
i’m freaking exhausted today. the ugly-bad lack of sleep from the weekend, monday night’s code-a-thon and class last night have all caught up with me to create an über-tired girl who can’t drink enough coffee to keep her head from drooping. guess who’s going to bed at eight o’clock tonight.
friday afternoon at work, after going to the farmer’s market at lunch, i had three big bags of amazing fresh produce sitting on my desk (as opposed to leaving them in my car to cook). sandy came up and was peeking through the plastic at the watermelon and green beans. she looked at me a little funny and said “i’m so proud of you for eating so well.” i must have made a funny face because she got a little embarrassed and continued, “it sounds weird, but so many single people just don’t seem to eat very well.”
for some reason, i’ve been thinking about that ever since. god knows i’m not health food girl by any stretch of the imagination, but i guess i do eat a lot of good-quality, home-made food. it is really hard for me to imagine living on boxed meals or eating out every day. *twitch* there have been times when my schedule hasn’t permitted me to eat normally and i actually get really, really antsy for homemade food. usually something green. mm, broccoli.
i don’t understand how people can not like vegetables. god, they’re so yummy! fresh and crisp and sweet and flavourful. lightly steamed or stirfried or blanched then sauted with some garlic and pepper… yum!
i love this layout and i don’t care what any of you think. that squirrel was a stroke of fucking genius. *chitter* i also think i love moveable type even though i feel like i’m cheating on noah for saying so.
i’m going to win the lottery tonight. just you wait and see!
grand total time spent on assignment: 8 hours
amount of caffeine injested: 1500 mg
hours sleep lost: 3.5
pages of formatted source code: 12
expletives uttered: countless
feeling of satisfaction of getting it all done and working despite horrible procrastination and apathy: priceless
1. “The Munsters” or “The Addams Family”? munsters
2. “The Sopranos” or the “Godfather” movies? neither
3. “The Jetsons” or “Lost in Space”? jetsons
4. “Superman” or “Batman” (either the TV shows or the movies)? superman movies, batman tv show
5. “Sex & The City” or “Friends”? friends
6. “The Wizard of Oz” or the “Harry Potter” movies? again with the mean. ugh, wizard of oz
7. “The Simpsons” or “King of the Hill”? futurama
8. “Grease” or “Saturday Night Fever”? grease lignting!
9. Old prime-time soaps: “Dallas” or “Dynasty”? falcon crest
10. Not very thought-provoking this week…do you prefer TV shows or movies?
i prefer tv shows only because of the ability to have longer story arcs and many more sub-plots. 22 hours a year vs. 2 hours wins every time.
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LAYER ONE:
Name: heather shannon
Birth date: july 3, 1972
Birthplace: north vancouver, british columbia, canada
Current Location: north vancouver, british columbia, canada
Eye Color: blue & brown
Hair Color: brown
Height: 5’4″
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: cancer
LAYER TWO:
Your heritage: scottish/polish
The shoes you wore today: white sneakers
Your fears: spiders, dying alone and loveless
Your perfect pizza: mushrooms, onions, green peppers, pineapple, extra sauce, thin crust
Goal you’d like to achieve: sveltness
LAYER THREE:
Your most overused phrase in an online messenger: heh
Your thoughts first waking up: MORE SLEEP!
Your best physical feature: um. probably my eyes.
Your bedtime: 10pm
Your most missed memory: i forget
okay. here’s the deal… assignment number four is due in exactly 24 hours and 30 minutes. i haven’t started it yet. i still can’t bring myself to give a shit if i get it done or not, but i’m going to at least give it the old college try.
wish me luck. send me encouraging email. and caffeine! oh, and an algorithm guru. thanks!
it’s monday, boys & girls! rejoice! three weeks (give or take) until my birthday, my vacation and my boy. things are looking up in hessieland.
i’m wearing a dress at work and i’m leaving a wake of stunned coworkers as i pass. “a dress! heather’s wearing a dress! what’s the occasion? is she getting married? did someone die?” it’s funny yet embarrassing. why is what i wear such a huge deal?
oh, yeah. i’m now using moveable type to manage the blog and i have a new layout courtesy of some not-so-subtle design theft from paul. thanks, man. the squirrel thinks you rock.
p.s. yes, i know the drop-downs don’t work in opera. sorry!
i’m frustrated and procrastinating again.
frustrated because i can’t, for the life of me, seem to get an export file from greymatter that isn’t somewhow fucked up. why do i need an export file? i’m migrating to moveable type, that’s why. i’ve been working on that for a week, trying to figure it all out and such. now, i’m *this* close and i keep fucking up one thing that’s making it all go apeshit. ARGH!
i have another assignment due for class on tuesday. think i’ve started it? yeah, right. what with being grumpy, overtired and sloth-like from the heat and spending half of yesterday at dad’s doing laundry, i’ve barely been home to even consider starting. now that i have the time, i’m obsessed with this cms migration and can’t seem to concentrate on stupid pascal stuff. bleh.
at least the pot of turkey chili i’m making is looking to be the best i’ve ever made.
oh, and i seriously need to get laid.
it’s the grand return of the THERMO-CAM! enjoy my torment.
first, and most importantly, go wish the gloriful, wonderous jodi chromey a fantabulous 31st birthday!
so, it’s been no secret around these parts that i’ve been in a ridiculously foul humour the last month or so. as more than a few of you have figured out, i thought i might have gotten myself pregnant through my own idiocy. being the kind of “out of sight, out of mind” person i am, i didn’t want to talk about my worries for fear of making them real, as if voicing my concern alone would make a sperm meet an egg and start dividing with a vengence. i don’t know if talking about it would have helped me feel less stressed about it, but i do know that clearblue easy sure as hell helped allay my worries. don’t you dare think i’m ever playing unsafe again.
use birth control, boys and girls. every time. no glove, no love!
the weather here has taken a turn for the FUCKING HOT and i’m none too happy about it. it’s pretty disgusting for the first week of june. it’s as hot as the middle of august the last couple days. sleeping last night was a futile effort. i was up every other hour and the dreams were crazy. all things considered, i’m in a pretty good state today. i think it’s the fact i’ve been eating really well this week (thanks in part to starting my food journal again to keep me honest) and it’s helping my insides feel lighter which makes me feel better as a whole. funny how that works, huh? feed your body good quality fuel and it performs better. who knew?
i’ve been feeling the need to take control of my environment the last few days. the fixing my eating habits is a symptom, i’m sure. doing all my filing the other night is another. as is calculating and swearing over my budget for the next three months. next, i think i need to go through my bookshelf again and put all the recipes i’ve collected this year in my cooking binder. it shouldn’t, but it still does amaze me just how much better i feel when my demesnes are in order. sometimes i wonder if that’s a symptom of ocd or somesuch. if so, i think i can deal with it.
1. Cats or dogs? cats
2. Butterflies or birds? birds
3. Horses or cows? cows
4. Turtles or snakes? turtles
5. Frogs or grasshoppers? frogs
6. Lions or tigers? that’s mean. tigers. no, lions. dammit, both!
7. Elephants or mice? mice
8. Porcupines or aardvarks? porcupines
9. Unicorns or dragons? dragons
10. Thought-provoking question of the week: You live in a rather dumpy apartment. A friend offers you a chance to be a roommate at a new place s/he is moving into, but they don’t allow pets. You have a pet. Do you find your pet a new home and take the new place, or do you keep your pet and stay put?
gee, this sounds semi-familiar. well, besides the fact i’d make an awful roommate, i’d have to stay where i am to be with my pet. *sigh* i miss my cat.
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yay! my animatrix dvd arrived today! yay!
shit. there goes my plan to do homework and clean the kitchen tonight…
not quite dead yet. got 105% on assignment i was bitching about. hate my work. keep thinking of things to say, but forget them when i have the time or inclination. broke. registered for my next course (in september). need a haircut. feeling restless. washed the car. sudden urge to go geocaching. spending too much. craving chocolate. watching the cotton fluff float. futzing with mt. not interesting, but still funny, dammit.
it’s all okay.
there isn’t even a pretty photograph to distract you from my uselessness as a writer today. sorry.
my mind is swamped with concerns i’m not willing to share with anyone, let alone the internet at large. it makes me quiet (and strangely productive at the office). this weekend is either going to be a huge relief or the beginning of a very difficult journey for me. i’m scared shitless of the latter. you can’t possibly imagine.
my fortune cookie from lunch reads:
avoid any disagreements with your partner at this time
yeah, too late.
shrimp cocktail. grilled portabello mushrooms with tomato salsa. baked garlic shrimp. sirloin topped with prawns sauteed with peppers, onions & black bean sauce. billy miner pie. old friends. laughter. love.
i’m still full.
i’m feeling much less evil today. although, when i woke up this morning my second thought (the first being “MORE SLEEP!”) was “thankfully it’s friday”. yeah, wishful thinking. just how seriously wrong is it to have all your hopes dashed before six a.m.?
i can’t remember if i’ve mentioned the cute boys from class. actually, there are several cute boys in class, but i’ve only talked to two of them. steve is older than me, but looks & acts much younger, while shane is just a pup, but i thought he would be the older one. they’re both wicked smart, charming and funny. it’s not like they’re going to turn into lifelong friends, but it’s been a realy nice change of pace for me to find someone to bond and socialize with for the duration of the course. i’m usually the person who spends three months in a course without ever having a single conversation with anyone in the room. sad, but true.
was there a point? oh, right, i remember now. anyway, we all lingered out in the parking lot after class last night. the boys were smoking and we were gossiping about our classmate’s hissyfit i somehow managed to miss because i was too busy working on the lab assignment. we yakked about pascal, cars, sex. you know, all the things normal people talk about on a balmy tuesday night.
wait, there was no point. sorry.
busy day today. lunch with debbie before she takes off to calgary for the weekend then i’m taking off early to pick the mother unt up at the ferry. she’s karen’s birthday surprise! we’re going out for a steak dinner. yes, i think i will actually partake of the mad cow tonight. yummeh.
