domestic therapy

i got home from the dentist absolutely ravenous, so i ate dinner without waiting thirty minutes after my flouride treatment. i’m probably going to hell for that. after i was filled with fajitas, i sat on my futon and contemplated my restlessness. i had the overwhelming urge to phone jason and invite him over to watch the hockey game and the premiere of boot camp, but i didn’t think that was a good idea. instead i just stewed in my anxiety and tried not to do anything stupid.
after exchanging a couple emails with paige, i was struck with another urge to clean. i tackled one of my bookshelves. i emptied and consolidated a dozen binders of miscellaneous crap i’d printed out and then organized my computer books. afterwards, i tackled my magazine rack. i turfed dusty back-issues of ‘linux journal’, ‘scrye’, ‘the duelist’, and ‘sys admin’. all in all, when i was done, i’d hauled six overful shopping bags of paper out to the dumpster.
not to be called lazy, i then spent a half hour or so going through a box of momentos from various trips i’ve taken and people i’ve known. i found my disney dollars from my trip to the magic kingdom in ’95, my graceland visitor’s guide from my visit in ’96, the card that i got with the roses susane gave me in the minneapolis airport, the deflated valentine’s day balloon dan sent me, my keycard from the computer museum in boston, the pictoral calendar of australia adrian sent me. i got rid of some of it, but i kept the most important bits.
while watching boot camp i did my crunches, squats, pushups and various other muscle-building exercises. there’s something about having that drill instructor screaming at you (even if it is through the television) to make you dig deep and manage to do just. five. more. woo-wah! but this morning my hamstrings are putting up a little resistance.
sleep came quickly and deeply once i finally crawled beneath the über-blankie. i dreamt of discovering ancient egyptian ruins beneath my office and becoming reacquainted with a woman i haven’t heard from in twelve years. i woke early and abrubtly this morning, but it gave me time to have a cup of tea before i left my house.