it’s not snowing. that in and of itself makes today a good day.
i’m going out for thai food at lunch. this makes the day brighter.
anthony was in for his interview this morning. this made my heart rate shoot up 35%.
it’s so weird. i *knew* he would be here today. i was getting ready this morning and i had anthony on the brain which was strange because i hadn’t thought about him in a couple of weeks. at all. then this morning i was all like “i should wear a good shirt in case anthony comes in today” and “i’ll put on a little extra eyeshadow in case i see anthony” and “i hope anthony isn’t allergic to perfume *squirt squirt*”.
okay, that sounds really bad.
i’m not even going to try to explain that it’s not as bad as it sounds because, well, i can’t. they weren’t conscious thoughts, but i was aware of a subconscious desire to make myself extra presentable just in case he was coming in today. and he did. i think we’re fated. psychically linked. destined to be together, whether as friends or something else. either that or i’m just a little more prescient that normal today and i should stop thinking about him in his white t-shirt and dress pants and his good-smelling cologne and his new haircut and his soft hands and gentle handshake.
i need help.