odds

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sometimes there are moments when you realize how important you are to certain people. how much they care about you. that they love you just the way you are, without reservation. that they will cross lines most people wouldn’t dare, just to be with or there for you.
could it be you’re the one? maybe now i’m the lucky guy
other times you realize that there are people who *seem* to be like that, but aren’t. they never reach further than is comfortable. they don’t put forth any real effort. you’re always left wondering if they truly care or are just around because you’re convenient to them at the time and when you’re going to cease being useful or entertaining.
is it gonna hurt if we try? is this the calm before the flood?
then i worry, because sometimes i’m that second person. not because i don’t genuinely care and want to show how i feel, but because i’m scared of being rejected for wanting to share that part of myself with them or not being able to accurately express what i want to them.
i’m shy, once bitten. though i’m desperate i keep my place
i need to cherish those who are and let those who aren’t go.

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8 Thoughts on “odds”

  1. Peg on May 4, 2001 at 23:40 said:

    Amen! (Been there, still there…)

  2. (the shorter)Heather on May 5, 2001 at 10:47 said:

    I’m a heterosexual man…. it’s just a problem with my glands… heteroooooooosexuaaaaaaaaaal maaaaaan. ;)
    Sorry, maybe I should go back to NOT reading the titles of your musings.

  3. heather on May 5, 2001 at 10:54 said:

    i knew you’d be the one to mention it. ;)

  4. Goddess on May 6, 2001 at 08:08 said:

    Definitely let go of those who aren’t there for you all of the time. You need people around you that you can depend on 100% of the time.
    I too am guilty of being the second type of person with some people. Sometimes it’s easier to keep people at a distance that way when they disappoint you you can cut the ties without much harm to yourself. But I think it says a lot about the people that you do that to because obviously there is a reason why you don’t fully trust them to begin with. Ya know?

  5. paige on May 6, 2001 at 11:07 said:

    ditto ditto ditto

  6. sc0tt on May 7, 2001 at 13:53 said:

    i think it’s unrealistic to hold people to being 100% reliable 100% of the time… everybody has issues they need to deal with at certain times, and therefore may not be available to help pick you up in your time of need.

  7. Goddess on May 7, 2001 at 14:17 said:

    Guess that takes you off the short list.
    :)
    No you’er right. I guess what I was trying to say is that you have to be able to trust them 100% of the time. Or something.

  8. Goddess on May 7, 2001 at 14:18 said:

    Misplaced apostrophe, heh.

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