run-on sentences are cathartic

i’m ready to give up. i’m so overwhelmed with my current class, i just don’t know if i can make it to the end. while i’d love to wholly blame my instructor for my troubles, he can only get half the blame. the other half is split between my procrastination and my inate troubles understanding object-oriented programming. my brain doesn’t work like that. i like top-down, structured, procedural programming. classes fuck me the hell up.
that being said, i honestly believe that if my instructor was even a half-better teacher that i’d have less difficulty. i missed a class two weeks ago because i was so exhausted and worn out from the day that going to class seemed as insurmountable as climbing kilimanjaro and reading his notes only confused me more. i learned more in one evening with ritchie than i did in six weeks of class. if i hadn’t had that night with my java guru i wouldn’t have had any idea what he was talking about last night when he finally got to collections. this man can’t explain his way out of a paper bag!
ARGH!
on top of that, we have three assignments due in three weeks, on top of the labs which are more like assignments themselves AND i’m going to be in victoria the week of the final exam because classes got bumped because of the BCGEU labour dispute so i either have to: wait three weeks to write the final (which means getting an incomplete in the course, which will be amended later), come back early from victoria to write it (which just plain sucks) or get a fourth assignment to do and hand in after i return (which also means an incomplete AND the bother of having to figure out another of his crappy assignments).
in addition to all that, i’m seriously considering waiting until september to take my last course because i just can’t bear the idea of getting another crappy instructor and having to live through twelve more weeks of a course i don’t care about just because i want to finish what i’ve started and get that useless associate certificate.
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well, if you’re looking for me over the next two weeks, i’ll be the one doing java homework. no more fun for me. bastards.