they’re ganging up on me!

you may or may not remember my writing about being asked to be the unit rep for the union. i had given it a lot of thought and talked to my father about it (which didn’t help as much as i thought it would. he’s terribly silent when he thinks i should make the decision myself.) and pretty much concluded that i didn’t want to do it. so i forgot about it, until yesterday.
rhonda, the secretary-treasurer, came in and held up a little, yellow piece of paper. this piece of paper was a nomination form. yup. with my name filled in for unit rep. ARGH! she spent about twenty minutes trying to talk me into it. the nominations have to be in by march 20th, so i told her i’d think about it.
this morning, before i’d even gotten my coat off or my first cup of coffee, ray, the president, cornered me in my office. i told him i’d already talked to al and rhonda about it. he said that was a good sign, that i obviously had support. i did learn something new from him, though. it’s only a one year term, because sue is resigning in the middle of her two years. that makes a slight difference. not much, but it’s definitely a pro.
i talked to debbie, my job steward and friend, on the way upstairs this morning. she, like everyone else i’ve mentioned it to, thinks i’d do a great job. she was just very clear about cautioning me about the amount of work involved. i find that interesting because everyone else has made a point of saying “nothing ever happens in admin — it shouldn’t be too hard”.
ray said, point blank, that i can only expect more pressure from the executive as it gets closer to the end of nominations. but, that if i had definitely decided against it, to let him know as soon as possible so they could recruit someone else. argh! i just don’t know what to do.
there are a lot of things about it which appeal to me. then there are the things which scare the shit out of me, too. i need to talk to susan about what exactly the job entails. maybe i can get her and debbie together to talk it over.
the weird thing is this is such a grown-up situation. i mean, i still think of myself as a teenager. i don’t feel old enough or smart enough or responsible enough to have this kind of responsibility. i find it incredible that all these people think that i can do it. either i’m just not aware of my own capabilities or i have them fooled completely.