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it’s valentine’s day. i’ve been sending bah hum bug cards to everyone i know. i’m also wearing black. i was going to change the colours of the site to reflect my anti-valentine’s stance, but didn’t want to put that much effort into it. it seemed blasphemous somehow.
i keep holding out hope that someone i know will do something spontaneous and unexpected and send me something today. it’s happened before. but, i’m fairly sure my day will be unpunctuated by flowers, candy or cards. gee, don’t i sound so sad.
you’d think after having dreams of bathing kittens who’d fallen into unflushed toilets i’d be in a better frame of mind. i think the residual tar-fume headache from yesterday is what’s weighing me down.
tyler phoned last night. i didn’t answer it, though. i remember thinking “fuck, i *just* got comfortable. i’m not moving.” luckily i fell asleep before the guilt kicked in. that’s okay, i’m feeling guilty enough now. i’ll phone him tonight if jason doesn’t show.